Karma strikes me and I fell sick this time round, had slight fever and throat inflammation. Baby is really sucha caring boyfriend. He insisted to bring me to visit the doctor and from this visit, I realised not all doctors are professional. The first doctor I visited gave me a medicine that is equivalent to panadol whereby I already said I am allergy to panadol. Well done, want I die early is it?

Didn't go to work and resting at home now. Watched love jk and realised I have already lost track with my super junior, especially my ryeowook. But it's okay, I still support him like how I do in the past!



He's still as cute as before, and he can actually speak quite fluent chinese. Zai!

Baby went to work so couldn't meet him today. Regretted much for not going to work, if not I can go and surprise him today after his work. Ah real shit now! :(

Life is crashing down badly on me. Assumption kills me down.

When I thought that life is getting badly, it tore me down again. This time round, it's deeper. I kept all of these depress into my mind, and hug onto my pillow to cry it out loud. No one to turn to, no one to console from. I love the thrill of having pain to numb your heart. I really stop feeling aching in my heart. When the life goes up, then it comes down.

Hey god, you gave me too much problems and I'm dead now. My heart is dead for now because you gave me so much emotion and being hurting me again and again.

Dead shot

If the world and time and everything little thing can be just a little bit more flexible, life will definitely be great. Everything seems like going against me. For a moment, I feel like taking a puff because it seems like everything will be so great. There are times when I really feel like ranting out my feeling and anger but I can't. There are times when I hope I can be breakfree from the comfort zone and be freedom with my own life. Getting drunk and forget 'bout the troubles I am facing. If life's this good, I won't be even thought of doing foolish stuffs. Because, life is so miserable now.

Lovin' weekend like I'll never do.

Weekend passed like lightning, weekday passed like long heavy downpour. Spending my Saturday with my lovely boyfriend. Though we have been quarrelling almost everyday now but we are still as good, I think? Went over to his house and took a nap before heading to USS to find karyaow and shirlene and importantly, to enjoy the fireworks. But I doubt I was enjoying b'coz the firework was too loud alr. For a moment, I can understand the feeling when Japanese occupation period and they bombed S'pore. It was that loud!

Had an impromptu decision to join Jiale's friend for drinking 'coz I don't wanna go home early and he doesn't allow me to wait for shirlene alone. It was kind of awkward 'coz I don't really talk much. And again, I felt kind of shit. I felt okay, just that I feel like vomiting. I guess after last night, Jiale won't allow me to go drinking alone with friends without him around. Gosh, I feel like a burden to him. :(

My eyes swollen and it's feeling real uncomfortable now. But not like I can go and get a MC. :( I really dislike working! Okay I ciao off, shall go surprise him at amk now? :D

" What are words, if you don't really mean them when you said them. What are words, if they are only for good times then they don't?"

Never did I ever feel happy once internship started. It seems like the sunshine is gone, and everyday all I see is only darkness. The feeling of losing something. It slips off from my hand.

You're my motivation to me, especially when I am facing the stress in work. Just your presence is enough to brighten up my day. I've been always waiting for the time to clock out and meet you for dinner. You've never fail to make me smile, boy.



I know there are many things that is falling for you but always know that I'll be here for you. Yes, it may be the down period for you but the outsiders won't understand how you feel. I know it's definitely hard for you now, but I'll be here for you, always.



Work is still tiring but things are getting better. I hope we will be happy always, just like now!

It's finally my off day again because it's weekend! The happiest time of my life.

Woke up at 630 in the morning and prepared to rush to airport to send Chuanhui off to mauritius. I felt so weak that I cried when I see her depart off. She's my best friend who will always be there when I need her most. She knows literally every single thing that I am facing and my problems. It's heartbroken to see her left but I know we will meet up again in five months time! ;)

Sending one off and gonna fetch one back tmr.

Went to flea market at home club and shop around town with Shirlene! ;) We have so many similarities that we couldn't believe! Hahahaha, real cool!



Thanks Emma for helping me to edit this photo! She actually went to search my photo and edit for me like vintage style. It's freaking nice of her! ;) Gonna treat her sugarcane when I work! :D

Okay, I'm freaking tired! One off day just ended like this! :(