I know it's all over and really it's the end for us. His message made my heart dead and woke up from the reality. The roses he gave me had wilted, from colourful and beautiful roses to a brown dead roses. It's like telling me that our relationship had changed from colourful days till the days when felt bored of each other and started fading. I received this flower on Valentine day and I felt the changes after v.day.

I feel so nonsense when I know how to console others yet I don't apply those logics on my own, stupid isn't it? I know it's really over and no point thinking over about it but time is all I need to heal the wounds. I am trying my best to occupy myself with things to do and get over with it, but still, it isn't easy. Give me months, I believe I will get over with it. :)

Out with Benjamin buddy just now and ate at Kimgary, I love the french toast and iced milk tea! I regretted for not eating that because it was really too yummy. Shall go and have it tomorrow with Jueying, if she doesn't mind. :D

Meiyan, stop being like a fool and grow up and be strong! :D *jiayou*

Hi, it's thursday today, it's also april fool day.

I woke up by a sms at 10.58am from Joyce and I got fooled by her. Haha, well done. I nagged at her and I went back to sleep. Haha, was too tired already. Tmr outing might be cancelled 'cause my friend can't make it and everything cancelled.

I had a nightmare last night and I dream of Zuanzhe. Was shocked and woke up. The scene was really damn upset and I was down there crying. Haha, but I know it's just nightmare. C'mon right, :) But suddenly think back, it's really quite sad. Ahh, gotta work at 6pm later.

Yay, saving money to go universal studio with two irritating and kiampa friend, J and Y! (L)

Listening to Today was a fairytale now, feeling damn emo now. Haha, luckily Andy doesn't know my blog b'cause he everytime calls me da yi ma -.-

Haha, that Rachel is damn kiampa now 'cause she telling me something damn funny yet...ggrrs. Oh my god, she's like going to sabo me on fri. Then Yihui smsed me, making him more kiampa and making me laughed like hell. He said he gonna spam me calls at midnight everyday, haha. Okay, only me, Joyce and him know what we are talking. HAHAHA! Oh my god, I loving them more and more 'cause they are more and more kiampa.

I love kiampa friends, not till those ridiculous one.

Sian, must go down to Lavender to do my passport SOON, somewhere next week. :( Yay, meeting up Rachel and Denise later.

YAY! :D:D:D Dinner at Bedok 85 with sick Joyce and irritating Yihui.

Before that, I woke up at 7 am and accompanied mom to Changi Hospital for eye check up. Glad that it's nothing major, just that she's old. Then, bus to polyclinic for consultation. Had to wear mask in the clinic 'cause I have cough and my degree was 37.6. Haha, was kind of embarrassing.

Shopped around Bugis street with Joyce and she bought two items. I bought a pimple gel from Watson and masks from SaSa.

Waited for irritating ttm Yihui at Lavender platform. Once he met us, I had a big headache communicating with him already. Haha, you should really try going out with him, you'll get pekchek as time passed. Had sort of heart to heart talk and they were really nice. But Yihui was so evil that we started recalling those funny times we had in secondary and we started laughing like we were the only customer over there. Haha. Slowly walked back to the bus stop and headed to Starbuck. Used up the voucher that my mom gave me. It was supposed to share it with him but doubt we will have the chance anymore, so I used it.

Then, I got so restless after that. Chatted on the phone on the way back home, Yihui and Joyce were disiaoing me all the way. Okay, I know my close friends will understand what I mean. :)

I love them! (L)

What a boring day, again.

I was planning to go to grandparents' house today but I was shocked when I woke up and saw the alarm clock showing 2pm. Lying on the bed restlessly and thinking whether I should go or not. I continued to drag the time by lying on the bed, then it was 3pm. So, decided not to go already. Shall visit them on wed. :)

Yay, meeting Joyce and tallie Yihui tomorrow for dinner at Bedok 85! :D We seemed like meeting up once a week, heh. I think we will be meeting up more since Yihui isn't working after wed anymore. Haha, but he's an idiotic friend who kept bullying me nonstop, NONSTOP!

Met up with Benjamin for dinner just now and I think he's feeling wth now. 'Coz he said he felt what the hell. Ben has been missing for 1 week. Bought alot of stuffs home and waved to Haowei at Tori Q just now. I think I will grow fat because I ate three egg tarts just not long ago. :(

Pray hard, tomorrow won't have pimple! :(

The first sunday that wasn't spend with the one that I usually spend with. It's kind of weird because last week, I never expect that such thing would happens. Well, I will be working on sunday this coming week or maybe, the rest of the weeks. Will be off on friday and saturday because will be going out most probably.

Met up with Adeline and went to Ang Mo Kio Kbox 'coz Huiping working over there. Had dinner with her at the sumo house, first time being there. Home alone and took bus 22 back, that damn long bus journey ride, was reading book, chatting on the phone and listening to music. :)

Back home. :)

Met up with him and passed him those notes and we left our own way. It's indeed quite upset when thought of it but I know, I have no time to think of all these now. I know I have to buck up. I have much more things to care about. Met Rachel at sintec and we slacked and chatted over there. Uncle made me laugh and cheered up more, haha.

On the way to buy bread for mom, bumped into Denise and home together. But sorry Denise, I didn't really chat with you because I was on phone with my friend. BUT we are meeting up soon! :) Now, I am thinking of what uncle had told me at sintec and I telling sister now and he agreed too! :/ Ohmy, got so accurate not? Haha.

Friend, ask me out this sunday please. Every sunday used to be spend with him, now, it's different. A new life, a new sunday! :D