I guess I really hate.

I was reading through my previous post and I realised that, a week ago, I was also blogging that I dislike my current life. Okay, I think I really hate it this way.

Nothing, just nothing is going my way.

Back to the past.

Left two more months to the end of the internship, but it's already getting relax for me. The project is a little troublesome but I believe we can finish it well. Come to think about yesterday, the feeling remains the same. I don't wanna be the one that seems like a loser, and don't know anything. My pride was stepped by them.

First day working at Canele and I was late for work. The work environment is like sugarloaf and top table. I felt so stress, I felt like I was having ssm. The way of taking order, the way of wiping the utensils, the way of pronouncing the french words, the way of saying "86", the way of serving and everything. I kept thinking if I enjoy working this job, I know I don't. I regret for not waiting a longer time because so many companies called me and I had to reject, especially the front desk job. Oh my god, I'm really feeling so unhappy! Shall endure, endure and endure.

Okay, actually I think I ain't happy with my life now at all.

Internship really makes friendship tears apart. Been working on a part time jobs at Canele, and gonna have my first day tmr. Hope it turns out well! ;) It's aching me to see baby working in such fucked up environment. Count himself unlucky this time round. Shopping with Shirlene today and spent nearly $200. I bought nothing for myself and all I bought was for work stuffs and other neccessaries. I'm really need money!

Waiting for two more weeks.

You change my life

So I won't hestitate, no more no more, it cannot wait, I'm yours.

Suddenly love this song again. Woke up early in the morning and went over to his house to accompany him. Pls scold me, because I'm so sick of the long journey and I went to take cab there. I was so god damn sleepy and tired. Now, I'm having headache.

Went off to meet Anna at northpoint for early dinner before she went off to work. T.G.I.Friday called me down for interview but I don't feel like working there alr. Is this fate? I bumped into Alvin at his workplace and I asked him if there's vacancy for part time and yeah, he needs alot! ;) Hope he can help me bargain till 7bucks per hour if I'm accepted. Gonna interview tmr and kind of nervous though! Went to meet mom and decided to make salad and surprised baby tmr when he is working. Mom asked me go and buy from cold storage and when I paid for the food, I was like kpkb. 12 prawns cost $8+ whereby NTUC 14 prawns cost $4+ and easier to peel. K, kena cheated.

Gonna find him tmr and surprise him w the salad! ;) The potatoes are kind of screwed, too hard to swallow leh. But still have to eat it.

Time flies real fast, like blink of an eye, it's already June. Half a year just pass like that. This relationship has walked through for half a year too. We are still working very hard to maintain this and I believe we can.

Baby is working bartender now and he's so careless that he cut his finger. Feeling heartache when I saw it but I know he really loves his current job now. Self-declared off today so went over to find him before he went for work. Really love cuddling him and lie under his head. It makes me don't even wanna leave him more.

Currently, finding a part time job to occupy myself if not I will be like doing nothing at home. So, gonna make sure of this opportunity to find a job to prevent me from thinking so much. Alright, shall continue my drama since I've nothing to do now. And I nearly forget about the wedding dinner next Sun. I miss him.

Life is like a rollar coaster, sometimes it goes up and sometimes it comes down. It's really getting kind of boring because I'm like really doing nothing and relying on no one. Jiale is busy working full time bartender and internship is like quite slack for me now. I kind of hate this life at times.

Conclusion, I hate the life now.

I'm finally free from front office, housekeeping and engineering! ;)

A sudden meeting in the morning and discussed 'bout the proj and Mr Trevor was here with us. They shortened our engineering and want us to start on our proj from tmr onwards and we are otot! Hehehe, discussed and we gonna meet at 11am to discuss. Gonna collate 300 surveys that we gonna ask!

Hope can work well w Khuzaimah and Ben. Hehehe, I suddenly love my life now! Went home around 1pm and went out at 5pm. Thanks Yihui for shopping with me but I was real guilty. Went to meet baby and bumped into cousin! ;) Accompanied him home and sleep for awhile then I cab home. Love cuddling him and lie under his head.