Dreamcatcher

I wish good dreams will always be captured and fulfilled. 

Just finished watching running man and gahhh, it's kind of boring for this week episode. I can't wait for the avengers episode that gonna air next week! It's been two weeks and I'm still unemployed. Getting more and more demoralized but friends around me told me to give myself one month. Okay, actually not many friends, it's only those close ones. Crashed two mods this week and quite impressed by my own self-discipline. Just read through my private blog and realized that I was really damn kiddish back then. Goodness. 

It was a tiring Tuesday. As promised, I accompanied love to nuh for his second blood test and it doesn't seem good 'cause his blood platelet has decreased as compared on sunday. Being a brave man, he volunteered to have his blood test for some research done by nus. I definitely won't volunteer at all 'cause I really scare of needles. :/ So I really find him very brave and attractive at that point of time, hahaha. 

It was quite early so we decided to catch the hangover part III at lot 1. I think part II is much more better, no wonder everyone is saying that part III is kind of disappointing. Decided to take cab down to grandparents' house 'cause I was really tired and the weather was too humid. Reached their house and the maid went to help me get lunch. Sat down for only five minutes and was cooling myself down, I received bro's call that mom fainted at her workplace and was being sent to hospital. Felt so worried back then and I couldn't let my grandparents know at all. So I kept apologizing to them and told them that I had to rush back to school for some last minute submission (not like they believed, they kept doubting). Grandma was really upset that I came only for five minutes and gotta left straight away. I guess I need to find ways to make them feel happy on my next visit to their house. 

Took cab down to ttsh and felt really panicked but the damn cab driver kept talking nonstop and said that sometimes accident are inevitable. I was like wtf and I felt like slapping his mouth to make him shut his mouth up. Reached there and I secretly sneaked into the room but was being caught by the security guard and he pulled me out to ask me register myself first and wait for my brother to come out. He was really damn sarcastic in the way he talked. I felt so relieved when I saw my mom, so the first thing that came into my mind was to scold her for mixing cough syrup despite me telling her not to 'cause its dangerous. After few hours, thanks god she can go home. So being a comical mom, she kept complaining that she was hungry and the doctor wasn't treating her well and etc. It's just her and her nonstop comical complaints. Brought her to novena food court and it was my first time seeing her ate so much and so fast. 

Back home and I had to rush the project again. I really feel so tired handling all these. 

I hope you all understand how tiring I am to keep telling you guys to work on this. This isn't easy.

It's a tiring weekend but I feel happy to be able to meet my bf. 

Woke up at 6am and prepared to head down to his area to meet him and accompany him to nuh for his blood test at 9am. Felt really worried when I saw him feeling so uncomfortable and was so shocked that his face was so damn hot when his face touched mine. Met him at woodlands instead and we cabbed down 'cause the train was really too cold for us to even endure. Sent him home after that and took bus 969 back. I felt so tired that I could barely opened my eyes and I just rest my head against the window. 

And yeah, took three hours nap and woke up having diarrhea. I hate diarrhea, I really hate diarrhea now. Gonna continue hunt for jobs tomorrow and will accompany bf to nuh for second round of blood test. It sucks seeing my mom coughing every minutes. Why is everybody falling sick now? :(

I'm making an attempt to blog as long as I'm free, to at least keep this blog alive, just like Thaijin's. Was feeling really down last night but I guess I'm feeling slightly better now. Oh I forgot to mention that I actually bumped into Don at interchange yesterday and I was really really shocked. Felt kind of happy to see him 'cause it's been quite a while since I've met him.

I was really tired today, despite sleeping considered quite early last night. I totally couldn't wake up at all when my mom and dad kept waking me up. I felt really frustrated when dad went to switch off my aircon and made a fuss out of it, just because I was sleeping and didn't want to wake up to have my lunch. Dragged myself off the bed after his scolding. Laze on my bed for awhile before I went to bathe. Came out of the bathroom and was opening my room window, and saw Philson's car drove pass and I got really ganjiong. Prepared within 10 minutes and headed down to meet him and off to temple for praying. Just feel like praying and hope that everything gonna be alright.

Was glad to have an impromptu meet up with half of my awesomest at tamp mall. Chatted so much topics from which semester we enjoyed most to most of the guys are jerks. Hahah okay, I mean my awesomest guys are like one, since they admitted too. And of course, they started defending themselves and said most of the guys are but it's okay, whatever that made them happy. It was a good catch up I guess?

Alright, shall start doing my project and off to bed since I'm gonna wake up at 5.45am later on. Feeling worried now since the poor bf of mine is having high fever now. :(

It doesn't seem to be a tgif for me at all. Woke up around 7.30am and prepared for my interview at bukit merah at 10am. Was pretty happy that I managed to estimated the time right, taking into the consideration of having high possibility of getting lost at that area. I was totally lost when I reached the station. I've no idea where exit to follow and whether to turn right or left. I don't wanna follow my instinct at all. Thanks god kl gave me a text and asked me if I have reached the place safely. Interview was really fast and I guess I'm so used to going interview that I don't even feel nervous at all, not even a tiny bit. 

Headed home after the interview to have a rest before meeting my girls for dinner. I've no idea what happened recently but I've been having stomach discomfort almost everyday, and I felt like vomiting last night when everything was already at the peak. Ate an apple before heading out since I was hungry. And I'm really sorry Thaijin, for being late, again. I know you felt really angry but somehow, seeing me in such state, you didn't vent your anger at me already. 

Walked to outside of dhoby station and sat down to chat with Thaijin and Chuanhui. I knew both of them felt kind of helpless when they saw me feeling really down but yeah, I'm glad I have my girls. I can't imagine what will I become if I were to handle everything alone and keep within myself. 

It started pouring and we quickly walked over to orchard central to meet Jaslyn for dinner. Everything w fries was really crowded, so we decided to settle down at matcha house but I don't know for what reasons, we went back to ewf. I guess my soul wasn't really there at that point of time, ha. Three of us squeezed into a two seated table and hoping that the table besides us will quickly leave after they finish their meal. But no, being a Pepsi/Iced lemon tea, they sat there and kept chatting nonstop after their meal. So being the poor Singaporean here, four of us were really pathetic enough to squeeze around the two seated table. 

Walked around aimlessly before we parted. 

Whatsapp with Thaijin while I was on my way home and I'm really glad that I still have her with me now. Alright, I shall go and rest now since I'm having a really painful headache now. Shall blog on my pte blog when I'm more energetic. G'night all.

Nothing more than them.

Blogging at this timing actually make me reminisce about the past and having so much thoughts running through my mind now. I don't know how to really put everything into words at all. My heart tells me that I am missing something, but I can't express out what I am really missing about, or who exactly is it.

Listening to happy song doesn't make me feel any better at all now. 

But still, this is really quite a nice and happy song, sounds more of like christmas song too. Well, it's just nice, no harm listening. 

Alright, maybe I know what am I really missing about now; my family. Was looking through my 21st birthday album last night before I went to sleep. It makes me feel kind of upset and miss everything.  It's fate, it's fate that make us become one family. We might not live together as a family when I was young, neither did my brother, but we grew together as one family. Remembering how my brother used to dote me when I was a kid, though he used to caused my teeth bleed like mad. And my dad, he's the man that never fail to keep beating me using cane, making my whole leg was full of scars and marks. Oh, and I never forget that she slapped me once 'cause I said she was a pig when she kept sleeping and doesn't want to watch me tie my shoes lace before I headed to school when I was primary 4. Come to think of it, there are many funny memories. What I mean is, I wish to go back to the time, I wish to go back to when I was in primary school. Look at the smiles on their face, it makes me want to continue this happiness for very long. It's the pillar of strength to make me work hard in life, and the reason for me to go home everyday. 

What else am I lacking of? I need to be contented in life. Tearing when I am blogging this right now, I miss every single one of them. (Not like they are leaving me, but the quiet night makes me miss them even more) Oh, and I am missing both of my grandparents too. It seems like it's been quite a long time since I've visit them. I guess I gotta do that soon.

I think I need to go and sleep soon since I have interview at 10 tomorrow, like finally I'm going for an interview. Hopefully the job scope and the pay wise is acceptable for me. *praying very hard*

G'night all, loves! :')

It's been third day since I've woke up very late, around late afternoon. This is somehow good 'cause it allows me to pay full attention during lesson at night. I never even yawn once during class tonight. Worked with fongtai during my last day of work at recep. It was really quite upset when I knew that I'm not gonna work with them anymore. Well since it was my last day of work, fongtai treated me really good and helped me a lot. I even found out that he went to ask sup if can try to ask us stay, totally appreciated that though I know the answer well. 

Met my bf after work and it was raining heavily, so somehow we were stuck at fep and was wondering where to head for dinner. Decided to bus down to bukit panjang plaza for dinner since there aren't many buses there. Well, I can only say that it was really a wrong decision to go daiso that night. My mood was totally affected and yeah, got even more upset the entire night. 

It was a stay-home saturday for me, and also to accompany mom since she had her off day. Mom initiated and asked bf over for dinner but such a wrong timing since he went over to his friend's house for mj. Well, there's always next time! It is always a tough thing to think of activities to do on a sunday date with bf. But I'm glad that our activities on last sunday was great! Ok, as usual, without fail, being the forever late me, I was late in meeting him again. Supposed to meet at 12.30pm at dhoby for lunch, the forever late me, reached there at 1.30pm. So, we quickly had our lunch at kfc since he had craving for that? Err yeah. And we walked down to prinsep street for playnation! This time, being the clever us, we went for the package from 2pm-6pm, at $12.50 with free flow of drinks!

We played quite a number of console games this time round! The mario olympic was quite fun but the instruction isn't that clear, so yeah, I lost to him in that. Oh but I won him in cycling! Hahaha. Then this guy had to play his metal slug no matter what, so since I'm a nice gf, I accompanied him in playing that. But guess what? Not I wanna compliment myself here, but I guess I really improved tremendously in metal slug. I am totally 'good' in protecting my bf and leading the way to fight with the enemies. Oh, and I'm definitely a good fighter when I controlled in the tank. Alright to cut it short, I'm good at metal slug. We managed to complete all the mission and yeah, I've lost 49 lives in total. But it's consider quite good since I haven't hit 50! :/ Yes, it was good. 

We changed our games to band hero, guitar hero and gosh, I gotta say that I'm pretty good at guitar now! It was really a fun game but 'cause there are many songs that I've never heard before so we decided to change to the game that I've long wanted to play - the dance central! We only managed to play three songs due to the time left. We danced rihanna's rude boy, b.o.b's nothing on you and...I can't remember what's the other one. The main thing I wanna say here is, I won him! 

Last minute decision to bus down to east coast park for dinner and I seriously don't know why I thought I've alighted the right bus stop but I ended up at the wrong underground. We slowly walked down to the food centre and luckily, we managed to get a seat under the shelter before the rain pours. Well, I remembered that it was a tasteless dinner. Bf bought the sugarcane, and it was so tasteless. I looked around and realized that everyone bought the sugarcane with the transparent cups but he bought it at the stall with the paper cup. So yeah, sugarcane was quite tasteless. So, he helped me to buy hokkien mee since I had craving for that and yeah...it was tasteless too. He tried one mouth and he went speechless too. Then, he got himself the oyster with eggs and he offered me. But this bf of mine totally forgot that I have allergy to oysters and seafood. Err so yeah, that was a tasteless dinner night at east coast park. Hahaha.

I've been diligently sending resume and looking for jobs these few days but only recruit express and another recruitment agency called me for more details. I wish singapore mint will call me soon, please oh please! 

I can't stand it anymore but no one is doing their part for project yet, gosh!