I wish I am a girl who can controls my emotions and keeps everything to myself. I do not want to be like the past and I wish to change too. Who doesn't wish to change to the better. But our rls just seems so hard. It doesn't work like the past anymore. I really do not know how to express my current feeling but it really really really sucks. :(

Anw, received the posting result at 6am via sms and it woke me up after that. Posted to leisure and resort management, somehow not really happy about it 'cause it wasn't my first choice. Think I'm not appealing for hospitality and tourism already, 'cause they didn't post me in sure have their own reasons. What I hoping now is faster school start and get busy with my school work so I can stop myself from thinking so much. Sigh.

Down to bugis tomorrow with rachel. For like finally, can go out with her already(:

Preservance really leads me to somewhere. :)

Though it is just the beginning.

It flashed passed so sudden and fast. It's already 12am. Everyone went home already. I bought a mag to grandma's house 'cause I am mentally prepared that I will be bored. Was so afraid that dad will be angry. Well, can't be blame 'cause I'm not that familiar with paternal side.
I was busy cleaning up the mess after they left. Haha, it makes me feel like working at nihon 'cause need to clear away the customer's left over -.-


cool right, it's some grape wine(:



was not really happy today, but was not really sad compared to other days too.

I made up my mind, I'm gonna buy more and more nice nice clothes :(

As I expected, this chinese new year isn't a good one. I do not know why but it is just not a nice one. Yes I know I should be happy but the fact is I'm seriously not. I want to make wishes in this chinese new year, but will it fulfil?

Well, sorry friends for not smsing you guys new year message 'cause I need to save sms.

It's my sweetie's advanced birthday celebration! Hahahah, had a real long difficult time to think of giving her surprise and buying her present. However, we managed to succeed. (:

Had girls mini celebration of only 5 pax at bedok ccbox. I'm truly sorry that I lose control and started flowing my tears when celebrating with you guys. I met up with Jasmine and Huishan to buy the small small cake at prima deli then headed to find sweetie. Luckily, she's machiam kok eye, never saw huishan. I was so happy that this surprise succeed la and made sweetie happy. :D:D








Ahhh, I spoilt the pic la.


Our most likable mommy(:


Always complain for not singing properly when she's singing so serious, Jasmine.


Ahlian Huishan, 'cause she dyes her hair.


And meeeee(:







She must use her mouth to eat the strawberry. So cute la.


ROFL, part of her prezzie.


Sorry Jueying but I still post it up.


This Cindy has many different kind of pose to sing properly -.-

After the singing, we played the photo hunt in the shop. Guessed what? We broke the record okay! (: Then we accompanied Cindy to her grandma's house at bedok south. Had dinner at the 58 market. Went to guardian 'cause I wanted to buy the mask then then then got cheaper la!


This was how many we had brought. Whooo(:

I had fun day with my girlfriends, really. I love them so much. :D:D

But my love for him and my love for my friend is totally different. I never ever had this feeling before. It was so strong, so strong. Love can really makes one person blind.

"Love is more than three words mumbled before bedtime. Love is sustained by action, a pattern of devotion in the things we do for each other every day." - Nicholas Sparks

我真的不知道我应该怎么做才好。 我只知道我的心和感觉叫我不要放弃。 我是真的不会放弃， 你有可能会觉得我很烦， 可是原因很简单。

My feeling is really beyond description because I have never ever had this feeling before. It's strange but it's all my true feeling.

I accomplished something real great can! I didn't know that my cute photo had cheered up Naqueh day. :D:D:D Cool man.

Watched love matters with my classmates! It was quite great but the ending wasn't really satisfactory. Before that, went for my nihon interview. It succeed but somehow regretted 'cause ehub seems more stricter than tampines one. Everything seemed to change.

Played board games at the nebo cafe and I was somehow too excited for the game. Hahahah, get complaint from Anna 'cause for screaming and shouting too loud. I love the game! Who has nebo card? Ask me out for board game all right? :D Then there was a group having their own forfeit and approached me and jueying. One said ''I love you" to me and I was like heck-caring them and one explained what is love to Jueying. Well, sorry friends if I wasn't concentrate in playing just now.

Tomorrow gonna stay at home and rot and think of him.