Tiger beer w milk

Catching hong kong drama is really the best thing to do at night, making my night so wonderful! But, it doesn't seem to be the case today. We quarrelled again, and it hurts me deep inside. He actually defending a girl and argued with me. This feeling really sucks to the max, is this like a karma for me?

I love you, boy

I'm sorry, to one who loves me so deep and been devoted to me. I have been doing things that hurt you again and again. Though you are generous and willing to forgive me again and again, but I just think that I don't deserve your love anymore. I don't know if I have take your love for granted but I can be honest that I do love you. I appreciate every little things that you have done for me and I remembered it in mind.

Though we had uncountable quarrels and you used to hurt me time and again, I never hate you. Nine months aren't short, nor long. But we went through a lot of obstacles to become what we are now. Time and again, I told myself not to give up so easily because I really have feeling for you. Throughout these period, you have changed tremendously but now, the problem lies with me. I miss the way when you kissed my forehead, and hugged me so tightly. I miss the way when we held onto each other hand and never wanted to let go. I miss the way when you asked me to kiss your arm and you will get so happy over it. All the little things that we went through are part of our memories. I don't want to let this nine months become our only memories, I wanna create more memories with you.

I know it was my fault for whatever it is now. I am sorry that I have so many guy friends and causing you to feel insecure. Maybe I am way too greedy that I wish to have everything in life. I don't wanna give up on my guy friends but I never wanna give up on you too. Baby, I really miss you. But I really have no idea how to start afresh again.

I love you, boy.

I'm all about you, I'm all about us.

First time listened to Aaron Carter, I'm all about you, and I fell in love with it straight. It's freaking nice, but Jiale said it isn't. His taste for music is kind of weird. That's not the main purpose though.

Talked about work issue, it will really pissed me off. Damn, Jeff is gone and now come the new ass manager. I really dislike her so much that I argue with her. I guess all the female staffs will dislike her because her attitude towards female and male is totally different. Argue with her during work because she said she doesn't want to give me schedule next week, just because I give two days only. I found it real ridiculous. What if my school reopens and I can't work? Ahh whatever then, since she's the boss, I'm just a slave. Damn it man!

So basically, I'm gonna rot for these whole week. Worst thing, I have no money to go for shopping at all. This really suckz man! Dinner with Jiale just now, we commented on each other as though we didn't see each other for years, but actually for 4 days only. Alright, I'm hungry again, this sucks! :(

First Saturday night that I'm gonna turn in so early.

Formula 1 is on Singapore now and the race seems so exciting, but I ain't taking part in helping out. I'm really broke currently that I have no money for lunch/dinner soon. Met up with Anna in the afternoon to shop around cotton on 'cause there's 30% discount storewide! Sat down to chill and share each other's problem and relationship is really such a complicated and irritating issue.

Sometimes, I really wonder if single will be better for me or getting into a relationship. And, I've been thinking about this issue for quite a long time. I don't wanna be unfair for him and let him wait for me all the times. Relationship isn't like this. We gotta be fair. Dinner with Daryl and slacked and talked about life. Both of us went to meet Benny awhile before we ciao off. Okay, time to sleep, tmr need to drag myself off the damn nice bed to work. Goodnight world.

All I can say is sorry

I'm so in love with RnB songs, it's really so nice and making my night feel so peaceful, though it sounds damn lonely at times. Totally love listening to fm 91.3 at night, the best time to listen! ;-)

Relieved that I didn't work today, felt so tired and shag, for no reason. Gotta start enjoying my holiday to the fullest, but I'm broke, and I don't know how am I supposed to enjoy now. All my hard-earned money had spent on friends' birthday present, that sucks man. Hello, I want kaching kaching please! Lunched with Rachel at Aston's airport, yummy yummy! :-) Then, meet the usual 5A clique at 201 for dinner.

Okay people, I'm likea happy now because my long lost best friend is back in action again and really hope he remembers what he said man! :-) Don't wish to lose this friend again, because good friend are hard to get!

I'm still thinking when to visit my grandparents and current internet connection is pissing me off.
& Chuanhui, when's drinking session? :-) I miss you and Jaslyn and Thaijin.

Ups and downs

Life's really really really full of ups and downs, and it's really called life.

Past few nights was really damn dramatic, and it actually happened to me, in real life. I was devastated to the point that I literally drink beers and I found it tasteless. Guess the bitterness of my heart is really so numb that it can't compare with the bitterness of the tiger beer crystal, heineken and carlsberg. First time in my life that I drank so many different types of beers. The night was really hard to pass, and always etched in my heart. Guilt can never leave me now, forever gonna haunt me till I die.

First night was havoc, I sang song for them and made noise to make them stay awake. I used Dennis's money to bet on blackjack. I was hungry in the midst of the sleep, I woke them up for breakfast, really such a good bros. Benedict and Royston took special care on me for the entire night, not allowing anyone to harm me and they cheered me up when I was really down and gonna cry soon. They stopped me from drinking, they stopped me from getting hurt in heart. It's something I have to go through, I know it.

Second night was more havoc. They smashed cake on Benjamin and he's like such a poor thing. His revenge succeed. Wanted to drink more but they really stopped me in the way that Benedict was really angry with me. No choice, he's my bro, afraid that he's really angry with me and ignored me. No picture was taken throughout the two nights. Still, I do enjoyed the nights despite feeling real down.

The down stage wasn't over yet. Now, I have the urge to drink again. Okay, heineken gonna be my best friend soon. Damn, I don't want to have beer belly though. I really hope I can sort out my feeling and mind. No one shall get hurt, or, the hurt should be minimize. I know now, all his friends are angry with me and really dislike me, but I am still me, nothing gonna changes. Unless, I've decided that I shall be the one that get hurt for everything.

First, you tell me this. Then, you tell me that. Now, I don't believe anything at all. Sorry, nothing at all.

I'm gonna live on my own, stand on my own feet, depend on myself. Because I know if I too rely on someone, one day, I'll fall badly. And, that's what happened now. Really feel like drinking now, because emotions just can't controlled. I know that all these problems are just some obstacles and downs in life, will definitely pull through it. I know I will.

Drink tmr then.