It's so fast that this is my 600th post. :)

I was reading xinmsn.com news and read about Selina's incident and was chatting with Hongjun online. Saying that life is so unpredictable. You will never know what will happen next, it's just so unpredictable. Then, same goes to the dte incident.

After reading all the news, rehearsed my mice presentation on tues. I'm nervous, I'm lack of confident, I'm fainting! Hopefully I'll get over with that 10mins presentation in front of my new classmates and get stress w other things, like ssm menu and carrying plates.

Okay back to my afternoon with Jaslyn and Zhiyu. Three of us took 36 from airport, heading to Orchard. We were too engrossed with our conversation that we just overshot our stop and ended up, we had to walk all the way back so fast to Wheelock. My leg got blister! :( Had tori q dinner at Ion food street and went to taka to buy Jaslyn's Auntie Annes, Zhiyu's hokkaido ice cream and my umeya seedless milk plum! :D

Went to Pedro, Aldo, here and there. Then, to fep for our shoesss! :) When Zhiyu and I wanted to take bus from DFS, Jaslyn said she gonna waits alone till 1030. So, accompanied her to Dohby Ghaut to wait for her friend and trained back with Zhiyu! I think she must be glad to have friends like us! :D Feeling so shag on the way back and now, here I am blogging!

I tried to read basic of nutrition notes, but I got too many distraction already!
I really need to save money already because I wanna buy a diary to note down my stages of life! :D When I old, I gonna read back those memories book and reminisce about the past I had! Developing photos tmr. I'll be generous that I will develop photo of me and my ex because afterall, it was still a long period rls we had. So, it was one of the stages of my life, my teenage life. :) Teeheehee!

G.O.O.D.N.I.G.H.T, A.L.L M.Y L.O.V.E O.N.E.S! :D

Rushing, rushing, all I do is rushing for time.

Time never seems to be enough for us. God seems like playing a fool on me.

Rushing our MICE presentation at airport with Jaslyn and Zhiyu now. I know this sem gonna be a tough one for us. I wonder how am I suppose to memorize those bloody ssm menu and pass my proficieny test, I really wonder.

I'm struggling to get a place in uni, I'm struggling to get assignment well done, I'm struggling to memorize those things that I suppose to do, I'm struggling to manage my time well, I'm struggling to work as part time and manage my projects, I'm struggling to attend all lectures and listen attentively, I'm struggling to pull up my GPA. Last but not least, I'm struggling to get over you, you and you.

My battery is gonna flat, so I going to read up my accounting and nutrition now! :)
Bye, people and you.

In the very first place, you have already took a wrong step.
You realized it, but you continued to fall into the hole.
You were hurt, you were helpless, you were lost.
But you know you have to stand up yourself because this is life and you got to suck it up.
No one can help you from recovering this pain.
You left with yourself and you must be independent to face this life. It ain't any teenage life anymore.
You are stepping into adult life, so you have to handle everything maturely.
Love isn't a game, afterall.

Love is like a war. It's easy to begin but it's hard to end.

I closed my eyes, thought of it carefully, with a calm mind, listening to sentimental songs, and I came up with a decision, or maybe not a decision but how I feel all along.

Many friends have always said I had an emo posts. Because there isn't any happy post for me to post about. I finally realized that it isn't a happy thing to have a crush on a person, to like a person at all. For the first time, I am feeling really emotional, for liking someone. I don't wish to affect my friends' feeling when they are out with me. I tried to keep everything within my heart, even how much I wish to vent it out. You are giving me a hard time. You are making me feeling so lost. You made me realized it was so one sided.

You said you like me but I feel nothing. It's the first time I couldn't feel one's sincerity. So, is this your way of liking a person? Just plainly saying I like you but doing nothing, practically nothing at all. I took all the initiatives, you did nothing. So, this is your way of liking a person? How many times have I made the initiatives already? I've totally lost count. Trust me, for once, that I am really so sick and tired of trying to do much but you aren't catching a thing at all. Enough of the sweet talk, because I never ever believe it at all. It does makes me smile, but I never feel happy from the botton of my heart at all.

I kept thinking if you worth my wait. All my friends said you don't worth at all, not a single bit at all. I still kept persisting and had my own stand towards my feeling for you. But every step I took, I feel that I was wrong and so regret. I consoled myself that you had your reasons of doing the way you do. But it's so not convincing at all. Afterall, we are just from different world. In fact, you aren't the guy that I will like but god plays a fool on me and let me had a crush on you. I take note of the date we went out and every night, I think back the times I spent with you, I had more sorrow than happy. Yes, I know you don't worth at all, not at all but why, why is my feeling still so determined? I swear this is driving me mad.

I tried to reply your message slow, I tried to divert my attention towards other things and not you. I tried all ways but all failed. Don't ask me why I had crush on you because I myself couldn't explain such things too. Blame it that fate made us know each other and out of hundred of friends I have know, you are the one. Blame it on that. We don't meet that often, just that we messaged all day long but this isn't making us close at all. So, I believe that I can still give you up. I believe with much determination, you will soon be disappear in my mind. Because now, I hate you so much for making me feeling so confused, feeling so unimportant, feeling so one sided. I hate you, for saying you like me yet you are behaving as though you didn't say this at all. I hate you, for making so much promises yet you hardly fulfil it at all. I hate you, for appearing in my life and creating a din in my life.

This is how much I hate you. I beg you, for disappearing in my life.
For the sake of your own good, as well as, mine.

My face got alot of pimple can! It's getting worst and worst, cmi. :(

Okay, I was totally late for accounting lec today! Lecture at 9am yet I woke up at 830am. Rushed and reached around 9.50am. At 10am, tutor said go for a short break, hahahah! Zhiyu gave me my birthday card and it was very nice! :D



V you xin to do this. :)

Basic of nutrition tut was huh huh huh. I feel that I have totally took a wrong cds, it's freaking hard! :( Finished tut and went to Ion with Chuanhui and Zhiyu. They accompanied me for interview and I have a job trial at Ion Kikki.K on Saturday! During the interview, I was too nervous that I had totally forgot about the things I've learn at Up your service! :( I'm so disappointed w myself. Pray hard for me on Sat k! :D

Walked around FEP and Benjamin came and find me! Took 518 home! :D

I went to see Kikki.K website and I so feel like buying this product! It's freaking nice and sweet can! :D Shall see if I should do for christmas gift, hehehehe!

I'm really so tired that I don't know how to describe the feeling now.

SSM always make me feel so lethargic but today is definitely better than last week. My leg ain't that pain already, I used to standing up long hours already! :D Today boot camp is definitely tougher because I can't manage to carry the heavy heavy plates at all. I really wonder how am I gonna survive and pass during the pro test 1. Though the plates are heavy and everyone had hard time struggling to support but everyone is so united when we started sang songs to distract our mind!

Wine opening is fun fun fun! :D We corked up the bottle and we uncorked it. But my pouring is still leaking here and there. Nvm, practice makes perfect! Scoop up the ice using spoon and fork was all right too. Hehehe. Okay, rushed back home and meeting Kenneth later on! Thanks him 'coz he said meet at Tampines instead since I am so tired!

Suddenly two jobs called me just now. I don't know which one to choose leh! :( Freak, tmr 6pm must rush to Ion. Good luck to me! :)

Cause I know that you won't change. Cause you're hot then you're cold, you're yes and you're no.

I've told you how I feel. I'm lost. I feel that you're hot then you're cold, then you're hot again and you're cold to me again. I don't know what am I insisting on. All my friends said it's not worth, but why ain't I heed their advice. Why? Kevin said I ain't determined at all, I ain't strong and decisive enough. I know, I know I said I am trying yet my action doesn't show it all. K, all I need is time, trust me! :)

Nice Yihui met me after school for dinner, me love him! :) He passed me my birthday present and I was expected about it. Initially wanted to have subway but the queue was freaking long so ended up had tori q. Haowei treated me, hehehe! :) THANKS MAN! You made me had a great laugh.

I am very sian over my blazer and gonna look out for a new one at G2000 tmr. Send resume to resort world sentosa and hopefully, I'll get a reply asap! :) Oh yah, finally form grp alr! :) Hehehehe. Internet connection sucks like shit, how am I supposed to do project at night! FREAK, mom definitely won't allow me to do project outside, hoh say liao loh :(

Okay, accounting and mice tutorial tmr! Gonna see Sheila tmr, byeeeeee.