Picnic

It's been so long since I've last picnic. Probably it was last year, celebrated Jason's and my birthday. This is the first time I fly a kite, though it seems like the first time was a failure. My string broke off when it was hooked on others kite.

So, suay or what?

 

I love this photo so much cause the effect is so nice, artistic siol.

At marina barrage, some thoughts just flashed back through my mind. It was miserable but I had to hold on and learned to be strong. I miss him so much, like nothing can explain my feeling. It reminds me that we both came to barrage to have picnic for our one month date. Many things happened over there, it was all memories.





MBS is the first place that we dated and we first held hand. It's like wherever I go, there's bound to have memories. I went to rochor beancurd for lunch, it makes me remember the memories we had. We ran in the rain from the bus stop to the rochor beancurd on our first date. Like fuck, everywhere I go, I see  him, I see our memories. I walked pass pets lover, I don't dare to go in the shop to see hamsters because I miss them, yet I can't go his house to see them. This time, I really don't know how long will I take to get over with and move on.

Today is my last lesson for business law but I still have to take two laws modules during my school terms. Alright, decided to change to part time course 'cause I heard full time course are full of foreigners so nah, I don't want my results to drop and get affected. So, pray that I'll change to part time. I promise myself to do assignment tomorrow, jiayou.

So, it was all true.

I think of you extremely much tonight, and I tears while listening to our songs and looking through the pictures on my wall. Fuck, it's really so painful and miserable shit. Where have you really gone to? It seems like years, it's seems so long. Do you know I really feel like telling you my problem, my studies problem, my family problem, and many many things. I miss the hamsters that we both were so excited with. We went round Singapore to look for cute hamsters and we took care of them like it was our babies. Hey, you can just forget all the memories like it was never important to you at all.

I lose you, I lose all your friends. Daryl, he was one of my best friend when I told him all my stuffs. I remembered him coming all the way to my house downstair to listen to my problem and see me crying. He always give me the advise and helped us up. So, what's wrong? I lose it all. It's amazing how I can lose everyone at one go. It's amazing how I can become so desperate and devastated at one time, with all the different things happening at one go. Posting this blog while crying, I just really miss the past. I just to rewind the time.

I want to start afresh but it's hard. I promised myself and mom that I will work harder for my uni and to slowly forget about him. Mom was so upset when she saw me crying over him. I'm sorry, mom but I really love him. You know how much I do, you know how much I cherish this relationship, if not I wouldn't have bring him back home. It was all gone to drain. It was so heartbreaking. I thought I am becoming stronger, I thought I have let go, fuck, it's all "I thought". It's not acting it out, it's not the truth. So, why the hell am I crying all over again. I really want to remove all the photos from my wall but I couldn't bear to do so. When I know you changed your phone, I knew all my photos are gone..forever.

And I wanna say sorry to someone who treats me as an important person now. You should know what's the reason I wanna apologize for.

I wish I can let go.

Grown up kids.

 

 


I finally meet up with my girlfriend, Chuanhui. Thanks so much for accompanying to return uniform at Bras Basah! You're da best!

We went to nail status to do our express manicure and mine was so ugly, with that double layers of brown. Gosh, totally ugly and Benjamin just can't stop saying that it's ugly, sigh.

And I miss going out with the rest of the girls. Sigh, let's go play kinect again, my awesomest ;)

And Benjamin is so nice to come down all the way to FEP to find us, that are what friends are for ;)

This marks our 9 years of friendship.

 

Met up the rest at Tampines to have a farewell celebration for Jasmine. My dear friend Jasmine gonna fly off on Saturday to Australia and bloody hell, I'm gonna have exam on that day. Wtf, really making my life so moody!

 

Slacked with them at mac and it's amazing that we all seemed grown up that we won't be like slacking in mac to gossip about any person but we actually slacked and talked about property, the industry, the investment, the income and inflation etc.

Perhaps, we are really all grown ups! ;)

CHIO

Oh my god, I know I'm gonna be so vulgar but I really want to say that this polaroid cam is fucking pretty! Alright, maintain gal maintain. I guess I'll really buy the pink polaroid from Qiuyi, but this pink heart mini 25 is really way too pretty! Alright, shall back to study. It's fucking pretty! ;)

Visiting grandparents!

 

Went to visit grandparents at Holland V today with mom. It was a long journey there but it was worthwhile. And, I've been travelling lately, someone will knows why, haha. Grandma made ba bao porridge for us but I'm sorry, grandma, it was a little not to my liking and I know deep inside, you are unhappy. Alright, actually on the surface, I can already see that you are unhappy but sorry, some thing just can't be forced. :(

 

And to be honest, I think my grandma and grandpa look damn cute! And my grandpa is so blur that he cut himself while shaving, made me felt so heartache. But he still looks so cute!

And, my cousin has been getting more and more out of hand lately, confirm is mixed with bad companion. But I remember playing jia jia jiu with him always when we were young and at the old house. I don't understand why his hair so curly. I always scold him not to be so naughty, he just doesn't listen to me! Sigh, feel screwed and shit to be a lousy sister/cousin.







It's been five days already, five days since I last contacted him. It seems long, seems like months, seems like months that I got insulted by him. The feeling really sucks but I just miss him, miss our past. I know we have to move on and I'm trying my best to do so. Yes, I will and I must.

Shall take some time to do my biz law assignment. Ciao.

Finally, we met again.

 Finally meet up as three person after our last hang out a month ago or so. We had so much laughter and I really enjoyed the time with them.

Met up with Yihui to had dinner at Wangkok and wow, Yihui really has a huge appetite! He ate three different main course in total, hahaha! Is guys really had such a huge appetite?

Joyce joined us after that and luckily cause I called her! :)

Went over to shaw tower to had ice cream at Tom's Palette and couldn't finish my ice cream (as usual).

Walked around Bugis and slacked at Mac to camwhore! ;)

And I like a bag but don't bear to buy, should I buy? :( Really really tempted to buy eh!

Alright, dad being really nervous for my biz law exam. He called me twice today to ask me go home early to study for my biz law. Sigh, probably the reason of he paying the school fee. Alright, I will study. :/

Bridging day 1

Struggling myself to wake up this morning, but still gotta thanks wm for giving me morning call although I feel that I still continue lay on bed and don't wanna get up. It was a torturing Saturday to wake up at 6.50am to prepare for 8 hours lesson. I haven't been resting well for this one week and I need a good rest soon. Alright, glad Monday will be off day for me.

Reached school, feeling blurred and couldn't find my way to the classroom. I was being closed inside the lift for quite long, made me so afraid in the early morning. So, I followed this guy to level 5 and that's how we made friend in bridging course. I was so shocked and surprised when he told me that he was 30y/o 'cause he totally looks young, like my age. Both of us kept dozing off in class but I tried my best to stay awake by buying mocha and stuffs. Business law is really a fun yet dry module. There are so many different cases to remember, like every little things have a case to follow up. Alright, I'm screwed this time round. I'm not a law student, I'm just a hospitality student. Degree indeed isn't an easy path to go. I was so afraid and stressed up that I felt so lost.

Had a quick lunch at Astons at Iluma. And parents fetch me from school to Yishun to celebrate grandma's birthday. Alright, shall get ready for tomorrow lesson. I'm so shag, goodness!