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Hi all, happy deepavali to the indians! But it doesn't really seem like the public hols to me at all, just feel so numb with any hols already. All I know is I'm done with my projects for this sem! Studied with Philson and Jueying this afternoon at airport. It was so damn crowded and I only managed to study one chapter. I'm just too talkative and keep wanting to talk and talk.

So, ended up camwhore with Jueying with our iphone apps. 

Studied till around 6.30pm and off to tamp to meet Yihui, his girlfriend and Christine! :) Haha, totally love to meet them 'cause it always bound to have so much laughter and Christine will always protect me. But the fact is I'm the oldest among them, god. 

And shall end my blog post with my pic with Philson, an annoying friend of mine who has a friend that has a great taste for watches! :)

Uni girls

Finally done with the marketing plan and the presentation! Now left with two more weeks to main exam and then start on the new sem again, seems so fast. Still having dilemma on which modules to take next. Two law modules or one law module and one hr module?

Saw my bro's fb post and it was so damn sweet! :) Received 18 likes, hehe.

Went to 126 for dimsum with groupmates after presentation. Had so much laughter, especially the part when they laughed at me after I said "char sao" instead of "char ta". Can't stop laughing at all, and felt so damn embarrassing. 

Went to have durian after that and I seriously think we got scammed. Haha, Rachel totally cannot go and buy durian next time, she will get scam easily. Haha, just so much laughter with the girls. :)

Alright, gonna sleep now and gonna wake up earlier to study with Philson tmr! Night all.

no, no, no

This whole week was a hell week for me. Been sleeping really little hours and kept dozed off during work and in class. It was damn torturous, especially in class. I tried my very best to listen attentively and opened my eyes but somehow, I'll just end up dozing off time and again. 

Had my first time working on a Sat at nea. It was damn shiok but definitely not referring to the part where I had to wake up so fucking early on a sat morning. We ordered mcbreakfast and it was so damn yummy, and fattening. Worked till 1pm and went to Novena to meet my groupmates for project discussion. Not really that efficient but still alright, better than nothing done. Went off to meet Thaijin at fep for manicure and pedicure. And as usual, I dozed off during the pedicure session. I slept throughout till Thaijin called me 'cause we were separated during the session. 

Met Chuanhui and Jaslyn after that. Had pastamania for dinner and it was damn ex. Alright, I think it's cause of the thing that I ate. Spent so much on that day, on food. $7 on mcbreakfast, $10.20 on stupid damn burger king, and $14 on pastamania. And not to forget, $7 on starbucks. What? :(

Slacked awhile and catch up with the girls before catching the last bus. And as usual, yes, I fell asleep throughout the journey till Tampines. Back home and all I ever did, was to continue editing the report and waiting for the others to send me their part. 

Just done with printing the appendices and please make sure that I'll score well for marketing 'cause I really put in lots of effort for this bloody project. Alright, left with less than three hours of sleep again. Torturing month, upset month, fucked up month. 

hi, ted?

Work seems to be boring now, after half of the team left to hdb hub. The whole area seems to be so quiet, except when those customer came to pay fines, appeals and do all sort of things. Since the whole place gonna renovate soon, Farid and Foongtai were clearing up the store room and they found lots of goodies left over. So supervisor gave me the teddy bear since I didn't want to take any of their goodies. 

So I carried this teddy bear to school and everyone was like looking at me. And not to forget, the bear stinks like hell. So decided to leave it at the void deck under my block. See who's the lucky one who bring back the bear that I had hugged for hours. 

Was so shag this morning and was late in meeting Philson. Could barely open my eyes when I was preparing, totally feel like I was about to faint. He brought me to pray for my studies at bugis area. It was my first time praying at the 'shop'. K, it was kinda a new experience? Went to look for his watch nearby there and got the adidas watch, quite nice looking though. 

Then, trained down to raffles city to look at the birkenstock sandal. Wanted to try the three black stripes so we went down to wheelock to try. But I ended up buying the red stripes which raffles city has it. Alright, sorry Philson! Hehehe. Shopped around at the town and went home to rush my project.

Supposed to be rushing the project but the drama was totally a distraction to me. So basically, the laptop was placed on my lap and my eyes were totally on the tv for that 1.5 hours, before I met the girls for dinner. So when the drama ends, I closed my laptop and went to prepare to meet Jueying and Kylie at tamp. 

Had ahloy thai for dinner and shopped around tamp. 

Bought a bracelet at accessorize but it's kinda loose. But it's alright, since I can't find the type I like other than this. Walked around and I realized it's time to buy 2013 schedule book! Shall go and look for it one day. Home sweet home after that since Kylie's mom called her and it was about the time to go home and rushed my stupid tourism project.

Thinking of work and school tomorrow, it just makes me feel so upset. :( And I need to start studying after all the project submission. I've no time to slack anymore. Kkk, I need motivation! :(

cui day

Weekend just passed so fast, always hate the feeling of approaching Monday, the damn Monday blues. Well, this week was really like hell, too much things to handle. The depressed feeling was really like hell shit but thanks friends who were there for me. It was great to have these friends, :')

Was super late for project meeting today, but too tired to really care. But I still did rushed like mad down to school, what a responsible kid I am. It was raining hell heavily when we ended our discussion. Thanks god I brought umbrella and I walked from wilkie edge to purvis street in that heavy god damn rain. Thanks I survived through. Did facial at eden spa and hate it when she extracted the blackheads on my face and it turns out so cui, like whole face got rashes. 

Went to meet Kylie in the national lib and was so cold down there! Had dinner w her at olive vine at marina square link and settled down at cold stone for dessert, totally sinful night. And thanks god, she bought the birkenstock sandal from me! :') 

Alright, as usual, project time again! But I think I'll watch one episode of running man first, hehehe.

Speechless night

First day of November, a bad start of the month. Doubt things will go smoothly for the rest of the year anymore. I'm just too depressed, so depressed that I no longer have any motivation to fight this bloody god damn battle. I'm already slowly having the mindset of let-me-die-in-the-battlefield or just-shot-me-dead.

Well, there's no one to blame other than myself for this outcome. I could have study even harder for my exam but I just didn't put in much effort so I should have expect this outcome. Yes, it's supposed to be, "no point getting upset over things that had happened/fixed" but it's not easy to get cheer up just like that. I'm upset about the time and again failures I faced, but what made it worse is the anger I had in me, the anger of blaming myself for not putting much effort in my uni life. I've been treating it as though I'm studying poly now. I just ain't good at handling stress.

Working is tired though I know I'm just a part time employee. I just hate myself for having such life, and all I can ever do is probably blame myself for not having self discipline. No point telling myself to change when I don't have the motivation to change. Now, it's all gonna depends on myself.

Well, done ranting my bloody upset problem. Would really love to thanks jueying for her listening ear tonight and not to forget, my lovely bro Philson for being so steady and willing to bring me out for dessert to cheer me up when it was already 10plus. But now, I'm having toothache, just another issue to add up to my emo night.

G'night. :(

oh fuck this shit

Oh fuck this shit, on the very last day of October. I think 2012 just isn't a right year for me at all, all the months have been so screwed. I wanted to withdraw sustainable tourism mod so badly weeks back but there are too many consequences that held me back. Now, I think I really have no confident in passing this damn mod. Got back our individual essay and I failed by one mark. Felt like shit, so damn upset so decided to argue w tutor. But his reply really made me speechless.

Just one more month to final exam.

After today, it makes me feel that my group mates are doubting my ability for project 'cause I failed my individual essay. But the fact is that I failed 'cause of referencing. I just wanna quickly get over with this semester and I doubt I do well for my cb test. So, gonna mentally prepared to get even more upset on fri when I receive the result.

Alright, battlefield tmr, nights.